Am I Hurt???

I'm just normal one, I have a deep of emotion in my mind. Love to have fun because want to erase the pain in the mind. Many people see me and always think that I'm so fine and happy, don't care about anything. But of these are completely wrong. People think I am an optimised and cheerful person ,but I am not, i don't know the meaning of my life and the goal of my life. My answer always "I don't Know" Is it my life going with this words till the end. I just want to call ta, and tell ta I'm feel not good and really need ta in my daily life . What if is just a phrase but it's still just if and not become truth, it's just a imaginary that make you feel that there is a hope, but it's kind a phrase to keep you and make you feel a bit better to live on. I'm hurt and need ta to cured well all the things.