无趣的日子

经过这几天没有联系她的日子,每一天我都觉得很无聊, 无趣,不快乐违者我的身边,心理空空的......亲爱的她,没有你斗嘴的日子我真的很无聊,我的生活变得那么淡淡,做什么也不专心,也没那么顺利.我好烦恼,这几天做什么也没那么顺利.我的天啊! 我为什么变得那么寂寞呢?我很寂寞,谁来能陪伴我呢?不知道这几天她过得好不好?很想知道她的动静....好像关于她的消息都消失了,什么都没有了.我一无所有,什么都不知道,什么都没有了.

无聊的一天

这几天觉得很无聊,真的很想找朋友出去散一下心,但是每一个人都很忙,我真的不知道要找谁去的呢????一天呆在家,很无聊的过一天.我的日子为什么总是那么无趣的呢?不知道要做什么,要见谁的面的呢?在家听歌,看MOVIE,了,I don't know what I have to do at all. Is this my life ? SIGH!!!!

This is the second time T.T

Just wanna meet you and seeing your smiling face, it seems so hard to meet you. This is the second time that you refuse to go to see a movie together. After asking you to go out and hearing your response , I'm so disappointed and feel not so happy at all. you said nobody at home and can't go, I said it's OK,but every time I'm said it's OK, it mean I'm not OK add up not happy, and i don't like to force other people when they reject something to me. I'm just hoping to see a movie with you once more time, but it's so hard , the truth I', so sad after you refuse my invitation. It's another failure date. 

P.S : Because of knowing that we will be apart soon, so I just want to have more a good memories with you , so that is why I want to ask you out. You can consider it's kind of friendship relationship to see a movie together. Honestly, I miss you , I wanna see you, just a simple way.

分开和离开

我的人最难面对的时期是分开和离开的关键,我还是宁愿的选择逃避这个残酷的现实,对我来说是很影响我很大.但是不管我再怎样逃跑,还是逃不了. 我是很舍不得我的朋友,家人和每一个我关注的人.好像这几天看了一步日本的电视剧叫"真假学院" 是AKB48的团员来演的,关于外表来看是太妹的一部戏.打架的那种.但是你看到后面你才能了解为什么打架呢?为什么做太妹呢?而且我理解了,打架并不是不好的事情,你会找到一个很好的PARTNER,里面我很喜欢"前田郭子"她演得很好,她的笑容很像太阳一样,但是她的心是很脆弱的, 我记得她说一句话: " 我是认真的!只要认真的生活,你就会赢!" 我现在是正在努力的去认真的. 前田现在已经从AKB48毕业了是昨天的, 她们在东京DOME办演唱会3天是每一位成员的梦也是前田的最后的梦. 最后还是要离开这个团体了,我心理想她为什么选择离开呢? 离开是对她好的是吗? 我还是尊重她的决定的,因为她是考虑了很久了,也是相信她会过得很幸福的. 再真假学院里她是一个很付责任的人,去寻找答案,也是我想知道的答案,为什么会来到这个世间呢?我还是找不到答案的.

我才发觉我是不小心的......

我今天听了一首歌,是在一部电视剧的片未曲，我一听到歌词，我脑海里突然间映上了我和她的片段我的眼泪不断的流下来了,看到那时的回忆,让我我泪水开始的控制不了了.我的心突然痛起来了,我以为我不会再那么痛了,但是我错了,是在骗我自己的.我也是以为我能放弃她了,但是天天我想的事情就是关于她 .喔，我的心,你为什么还是那么不听我的话呢？
我也不知道我是什么时候爱上了她,也不知道是什么原因的爱她,
＂你无声无息 涌入了我心底 往事 却散落了一地 我从未留意 不小心爱上了你 可最后却要保持距离＂
这一句的歌词是描述了我，不知道何时她是我最关心的,最在乎的,最疼的,最难忘的.　我这一生会不会再发现想她一样的那个人呢?　我现在真的很难受，你知道吗？这几年的过往我是很努力的生活下去，因为我总是很相信总有一天我门会再相遇，然后那一次的相遇不是短暂的,是永远的拥有你.　希望每一天醒来会看到你,天天的在一起.我累了,等你也是很累的, 我只是想你能回头来看我在这边等你的. 我是不小心的上上你了,爱了很多年了,我知道你是往前面走的,不会转头的看一下,因为你是有了他了.
我这个时候是要祝福你和他了吗?我的心的还是放不下你. 我为什么不小心的呢??

Is it a time to let go

The day I don't want to imagine for and the words I don't want to hear and see , it has come by today. Should I be sad ? Happy? Wishes? I don't know at all. 当我听到看到了,我的反应是一话也不说,好像有很多话要说,但是有一块很大的石头来压抑了心理,有些想问出来但是口开不了去问.你说去是为了自己的将来,我也不知道你心理到底是这样想了是吗? 还是为了他呢? 以前没有听说你要去,只想待在这里了,现在的你是变了吗,想法也变了是吧,心也是一样的变的了......
你说我笨,我也是承认了我是很笨,我是笨到这几年来还是希望你会回头来看我.但是一切不是像我想象那样的美好. 我是不是应该在几年前放下了,我是一直那么笨的等待的. 我心理真的不想放开她,也不想让她走.我真的很想去请求她留下来了.我是找不到原因的去留你下来.我到底该不该的去祝福呢? 你知道吗?我现在的心不痛了,没什么感觉了,因为我的心是痛到现在麻了,不管你拿刀来刺我是不会痛了.
Between you and me now have 10 or 20 mile away,
But next year our distance will dramatically longer than now 1 million mile apart or 2 million 3 million 4 million  or more......

Am I Hurt???

I'm just normal one, I have a deep of emotion in my mind. Love to have fun because want to erase the pain in the mind. Many people see me and always think that I'm so fine and happy, don't care about anything. But of these are completely wrong. People think I am an optimised and cheerful person ,but I am not, i don't know the meaning of my life and the goal of my life. My answer always "I don't Know" Is it my life going with this words till the end. I just want to call ta, and tell ta I'm feel not good and really need ta in my daily life . What if is just a phrase but it's still just if and not become truth, it's just a imaginary that make you feel that there is a hope, but it's kind a phrase to keep you and make you feel a bit better to live on. I'm hurt and need ta to cured well all the things.

Just A Dream

Today I woke up so early. In this early morning I want to write down my feel about last night dream, It makes me feel so complicated now, even though I don't want to waken up from this dream. 我还是不想醒来,我宁愿的活在这个梦里,一个梦让我很舍不得醒来.我知道只要我醒来一切都消失了.我不想离开梦里的她,为什么让我那么痛呢?一想起来,心理就是隐隐约约的痛了, 眼泪快流了.我很想她,很想见她,可不可以今天晚上再让我继续的梦到她呢,继续的完成昨晚的梦. 
You're my Only One......

Getting older

我觉得年纪老了,脾气会是不太好.越来越糟. 很容易生气, 有时就是无理的发脾气. 好像我父母亲一样了,我总觉得他们有时不会控制自己的脾气,不会的起理解一下状况,尤其是我爸爸,现在的他好像变得很啰说的,脾气也是不好. 应该是年纪的关系了吧!我妈妈脾气还可以,也是能容忍一下情况.....希望他们能然心里平静一下,话得舒服一点,不用天天的在意谁怎样的, 只想他们两位能心平气和,舒服和开心一点了.

我还是没有真正的爱一个人

现在菜市发现自己还是没有的去爱真正一个人,还是没有遇见那一位的.我的意思是真正的交往过的对象,现在的我还有一个人的背景,到现在还是没有放下她.不知道是什么原因的.应该是还没遇到对的人,还是没办法的放下她.
我是一个很简单的人,希望是能平凡相遇她!

A new Begin !?!

This Saturday I have started my CAT class at Camed, I choose the management course. It seem so hard for me to understand about this subject. Starting a new environment just hope it become better and better, I still feel nervous of being a new place without knowing a person in this class. First day of the class, I feel so lonely and bored , because of not knowing a person in that class, no one to talk with, i was keep looking around the class, it's like a strange place that i never been before =!= SIGH!!! It's different from what i though, but the lecture is so friendly, she always keep the students mood goes up, and I tried to smile , it's a fake smile, and I tried to concentrate the lesson, but it's so difficult , it's some kind relate to math!!
My Goddess! Please help me to find a person to talk in the class and can share their idea to me, also can help me with the lesson outside the class, Please give me some friendly friend to sit near me, that is what I need in the new school. I will try my best to work on the lesson , I will work hard and try my best! My Goddess, I thanks you before hand. Thanks my god!

Missing Monkey

I start to feel that I missing you one by one, MISS 是不是想你的意思? 我很MISS她而且也是慢慢的MISSING她了.我不知道我在她心理是有什么位置,每一次想这件事真的然我害怕和不敢的再去想了,然我变成懦弱了,她好像是很幸福的.反而我呢?为什么还是学 不会放手呢?我不敢放下她,我的日子是就习惯有了她了,我的日子如果没有她会不会那么寂寞,孤独,无聊没有精彩呢?我的老天爷啊!您能不能然我话得那么有趣一点吗?我不想再活得那么无聊的了,您可不可以找很好的路然我走舒服一点,有趣的,快乐的,幸福的.我是一个很平凡的人,我只想要找一个人能了解我来安慰我在我不高兴的,来疼爱我的,我想找到另一个她的.

Shiny Love

It's a a brightly and giving hope for a person who hidden love other ones. I became addicted to this melody and make me feel warmth and relax during listening to it. It makes my mind calm and dreaming about the sweet time and happy time. I want my daily life became as Shiny love melody. It all from the bottom of my heart need this kind of pure love to have, just holding hand and have a nice talk. I just want to hold her hand again and again. I miss her warmth hands.

Unfaithful heart

It's been a while i don't write any thing in this blog. My day go through with the simple action which I repeat to do in every single day, nothing new. I always ask myself, Is that what I want ? Is that how I live for a rest of my life? I don't know why I have to living like this way, Can I moved to another newly way to live? I'm really tired, I hope I can find someone who I can tell all my mind story to that person, and the one truly care for me. This what I want to meet this kind person in this year. My God please help me to find that person soon. 

On last Saturday, I have done a presentation which the topic is related myself. I'm proud that I bravely to speak it out with my emotion, and thank that my lecture acknowledge about it and make me feel that I not the one think it that way. This presentation make me feel indeed good, for receiving other people to know clearly about this. I'm just a simple person living in this complicated world, I always want to change this world without thinking the result. I just want to show people the Truly me . 

我的头脑又开始乱想了

虽然我们经常联系,我反而觉得越来越害怕了,不知道为何要害怕的呢,自己走进来了一定要的去珍惜,这样才不后悔的.但是心理开始有一种害怕感觉和不想再的去想了,越想自己会越痛苦的.好像已经习惯了跟你对话,一天没有联系会让我胡思乱想了.我真的很害怕的.我心理的害怕没有人会理解,我真的不想再一次放开她的手,不想再的失去她.她是我的一切,每次见面我好像是在梦幻里一样,是多么的美好,不知道这样的美好会永久的,所以真的很想的去珍惜她再一起的每分每秒.我的老天爷您能给我永远的待在那个美梦吗?我的宁愿永远的睡觉.只有在梦里我可以拥有我想要的一切,不去在乎别人的眼光,别人的想法.梦里的我能自主,想走自己的路,每一位都是平等,一切很平安,安安静静的过自己的生活.我的老天爷能不能帮我实现这个梦呢?我想跟她在一起,不想再分开了.希望您能快实现给我这个美梦.让我有自己想要的生活.

美好的早春

今天是我门第一次一起吃早餐的，从我们认识起来这是第一次和你共同一起吃早餐。我很享受每一秒和每一分钟和你相处。我不知道这个美妙的时刻能不能再拥有多一次呢。可以说我很贪心的，我怕以后没有这种机会和你在一起。我这想要简简单单的聚在一起的。我真的愿意等待，我心甘情愿的等着你。谢谢上帝能给我机会和她在一起。我很感激您又给我这一个美好的机会。我希望能再能见很多次面。这是我唯一想要的。能不能的在拥有这个美好的时刻吗？我以为我自己能心满意足，但是越来越贪心了。我真的很难控制自己。我的美好的梦，你对我来说是多么的美丽的。

期望

今天我们是第一次一起吃饭是午饭的,我也没有想到能和你一起吃的.你还是那么细心和温柔的人,虽然我们跟对方说的话没那么温柔,但是我喜欢这样的你,不假装,那才是你.我真的很珍惜每一个分钟和你在一起的时刻,对我来说是很可贵的,有钱也买不到.真的很宝贵财富对我来讲.但是还是那么不舍得离开,我总是希望在那一刻的时间能停在那边,让我好好的看你.我想每一天能和你再一起这样的吃饭,简简单单的动作对于我来说是一件很幸福的事情,我们能再有很多次的机会待在一起吗?现在才发觉你是我的青春和美梦.谢谢你再给我这一次见面的机会.今天是美好的一天,因为我有美好的午饭跟我的美好的梦一起吃饭.我希望上帝能再给我和她再一起的机会.我真的很想录下所有见面的机会,录下她和我每一刻,想把美好的一切录下来.很感谢上帝,我会好好的珍惜我和她在一起的时间.能在有多一次的机会吗,我的美梦?

期待?害怕?

我不时很期待的见面吗?为什么心理很乱的跳着呢?我越来越不懂自己了.我什么都不懂,不懂的起表示.心理说不出自己想说的话,每一次都是口是心非.说不出来我对她的思念,每一次对话都是吵吵闹闹的那种,没有很温柔,说不出温柔的话,总是想气她.我真的搞不懂自己是要什么,明明很想对她好,但是不懂表示.其实心理有很多话想对她说,却说不出来,只能看着她.我希望明天回是很美好的一天属于我和她.上帝谢谢您,我很感激您给我这么好的机会.请您给我勇气和鼓励我,明天我会好好的表现.我不想再错过多一次.加油!加油!明天一定很顺利!

我快疯了吗?

昨天才见面,反而今天没见到你,我的心理很乱.就是每一次见面好后的第一天,你就让我这样的疯狂的想念你了.今天一整天望着天空想念昨天跟你在一起的此刻.昨天是那么美好,好像是场梦一样,让我不舍得醒来或走出来.短短的几个小时让我很难忘你的脸,我真的想回到我们的过去,是多么美好,不管在那么美现在回不去了,只能在梦里见你的.我真的很累,好累.我想一直睡下去,不想醒来到这个现时生活.我好累,好累,好累的活着.可以让我睡下去吗?

想不到.

我真的想也想不到你会打电话来约我的,真的很意外.今天能见到你和你看电影是一种没有语言来表示出我此刻的幸福.我不知道在有没有这个机会能和你在一起的呢?我很珍惜和你在一起的时刻.我能不能在拥有多一次的机会吗? 很谢谢你.

祝你生日快乐.

今天是你出生的一天,真的谢谢老天爷带她这个世界,让她拥有一个美丽的家庭,也谢谢您给我们相识,因为她我读书的日子也变得很愉快和欢乐.也是因为你我才学会爱这个字.虽然我从来没有跟你提我对你的感觉,但是我可能习惯这样感觉了. 你应该我不会发现我在这里写下我心里想对你说的话,因为我不是你心中的重要一位.你有了他,我看到你很爱他,他很爱你.这种结果是不是我想要的吗?只要你快乐幸福我就心服口服了吗?但是为什么心理好像很痛的..隐隐的痛苦.但是我已习惯这样活了......我不知道在这个世界能不能再遇到另一人像你这样好,应该不会再遇到了,因为你是独一无二,没有人可以期待.不管怎样我还是在这里祝福你,生日快乐,永远开开心心.

开朗??

人家说我是很长开朗的人,微笑总是在脸上地,但是内心总是隐藏许多不开心的事,没有人可以了解.我的内心世界是很乱很复杂,无人可以理解我.我很累,很累.想一直睡下去. 我很累.

it's been a while

it's been a long time that i never been in this blog, it's about 12days , time pass so fast indeed. my life what is gonna happen in these few days. I feel so tired for living this messy and complicated world. but i can not avoid and run away. This is my life.

向日葵

忘了什么时候开始，你依旧不愿其烦的陪伴着阳光。 而我不知道什么时候开始却深深的爱上了你。 你守护阳光，而我愿意守护你。 就像你面朝阳光春暖花开。

Last night dream life

It can said that last night dream was the dream that i want it to occurred in my real life. Obviously is not a really nice dream, but it was show that i have courage to tell her about my feeling. I think only in a dream that i can see her and she appeared to my life. I would like to stay in that dream rather than awake from in this real life, I would agree to sleep forever, 100 percents to be with her in this dream. i can feel the way we holding hands...it was an awesome feeling.. it can said that is warmth. Thank you that you were appeared in my dream...

The 1st one have completed

Finally, I had took my money to buy an IPHONE 4S, success grabbed it in hand... but in this month i have spent a lot money...... next month i need to save more money instead .

To u

有一些事过了好多年我还是依然放不下,永远的待在我心理,尤其是你.我们分开了很长时间了,在那一段时间我是很努力的把你放下,但是还是那个但是.你经常说我们是好朋友,永远的是. 我真的很想告诉你我不想做你的好朋友,我很累的担任这个身份,我不知道你是曾发现我对你的好超高了友情了,连我自己都不知为什么的???我从来不说不是我没意见,是我害怕.我对你的感情不是一般的友情,已经超过了吧,这些年来我都是不主动的联系你,之因为怕打扰你的生活......我这几年几年的生活都是没有你的日子,我觉得自己不像以前一样那么活泼的.我们这几年总是有几次见面,你不管走到哪里,我一眼看到你,但是你我明明站在在你对面,你还是看不到我.....对你而言,我在你心理只是一位过客,但是你是我心目中的很重要的人.知道吗,我还是很关心你,这是默默的.

Remember????

This song made me memorized 1 person, she is the one who i really miss and care, but i don't know now she whether fine or not? I far away wish her all happiness to her .

2012

it seem that in 2012 i have a lot of stuff to do and to completed in this year!

1 have to change a new phone!

2 have to save money for oversea trip!

3 need to save money for buying A CANON!

4 learn to bake!

5 learn to play guitar!

all these 5 five points, I haven't completed one yet, but the first ones is gonna succeed it SOON.

I hope and Wish aim to finish all of these 5 points without any doubt.

Nay, Keep it UP!

Guitar

will play it SOON!!! Love the feel when I play it !! Will enjoy it!!

::首播::Mayday五月天【星空】MV官方完整版-電影「星空」主題曲

至少回憶會永久 像不變星空陪著我 !!!! Really Love This Song, Meaningful, I like to sing it by myself alone....

God Pls help Me out of this pressure

I wonder why everything not going very well. GOD I pray and I wish you will help me to make thing BETTER...... PLEASE!!!!!

Last Night

A dream about you of last night, I still want to stay with you in that dream, don't wanna awake from that dream..... because it is the only way I can see you. Since we're apart I still can not let you down.......

KARA 今、贈りたい「ありがとう」

This Song Represent KARA to Kamilia !!! I'm Proud To be A Kamilia!

Get Injure

this is my first time that I accidently cut my finger... At that moment I only see my blood keep keep and Keeping get outside.... but at least I have calm my self down.....This Is My first Lesson and I will remember it!

忍耐

今天無論如何就是忍耐就對了，儘管你反對主管的想法意見，也要好好忍耐下去。

Cheating Trade

In this business trading world why business human like to use LIE to exchange and do the trade. Why there is no royalty remain?? how can I trust? SO that is Why I say THIS WORLD IS SO COMPLICATED!!!

梁靜茹&品冠-Way Back Into Love MV(480P)

All I wanna Do is find a way into Love!! I hope I can find the sweet way to walk on soon...

Day By Day

every Morning the first thing i was thinking about is what am i going to do today? Who I'm going to meet? what will happen to me today? is it Lucky day? and many many stupid questions that i ask my self....

No Mood

I don't know what actually happen to me these days, I feel so unwell about everything, something happen as i Don't expect those to occurred and seem like not so good for me to receive those happen. I really Wonder Why? Why?Is Me? No one can understand=_=!!

Wishing For U

I don't when I can Let you down.... even though is so painful.....Because U belong To him....All i have to DO is just pray and Wish for U.

很想的很想的

我真的很想珍惜所有的事物，也很想珍惜你，但是没有机会了，只能做就是远远的看着你们。。。

Time never wait for ME

Wonder Why Time Never pause For A Period,especially the Happiness Moment. Dear Time, Can U Give me back the happy time to me,give me a time to precious.....

My view

在寒冷的冬天，最让人感到温暖的莫过于看到阳光冲破云层洒向大地，

不但能够提供温暖，而且明亮不刺眼的阳光又提供了自然美丽的景象。

A Sweet Dream

You are my dream, that I don't wanna awake.....

我愿是你夜空中的一颗星，闪闪发亮暖你心

我愿做你夜空中的一颗星，

不需要很闪耀，

只要你一抬头就能看见我就好。

I hope U Can See Me!